I can definitely relate Thronkiuba! This was the first artwork I made after a 2 year hiatus from making art! I graduated college in 2014 and immediately started working after so I didn't have much time to create. One day I said 'I have to paint!' and not know what to draw, I said, 'I will just throw paint on the wood panel so I can make SOMETHING, anything!!!' haha and this is what came out. I really liked it, but I also painted over it this year as I hit another transition in my life and I really liked the outcome of this painting too: https://emergentartspace.org/a/47319/